walkabout

it was massively refreshing
walk about the west 60’s
in the cold last night
with the one i love;
admiring technology at the
new best buy @ columbus circle (cjc)
meandering conversations,
and then a teary-eyed chat (me)
at a coffee shoppe
near lincoln center.

i was detailing the concerns that
are weighing on me,
(parenting, specifically)
and he was listening and
then reminding me
of God’s provisions.*

His past,
present
and future provisions.

my heart was dramatically lighter;
i was reminded of the Truth
rather than my homemade recipe
of self-pity, with a sprig of worry, soup.
(you don’t want the recipe)

thankfully i have a Father
who doesn’t leave me
where i am
but sends counsel
to point me to Him.

thanks, jules, for watching the kiddos.

and afterwards,
we watched once,
which was as good or better
than our friends’ ravings about it.

*the israelites’ mumblings
came up at one point.
ouch and poignant.

luckily, it was me bringing up
the forget-His-goodness and
complain-about-how-i-don’t-deserve-this
people group,
and not cory.

ps – i think
‘broken hearted hoover fixer sucker man’
was one of the most endearing
parts of the movie.