so, yesterday was the last day of school
for our family (we’re skipping monday, shhhh).
and last night,
all of my summer ‘to do’ lists
came crashing down on my
lying in bed,
trying to sleep,
the transcript looked something
x needs help with math,
y needs to develop more reading strategies,
z needs emotional control so she doesn’t
dissolve into tears at the slightest frustration.
a needs growth in the area of responsibility,
to see the task + carry it to completion with
all of his heart,
b needs some new communication strategies,
c could use some refined listening skills,
d needs some serious manners bootcamp,
and so on,
and, left unchecked,
that mental list of ‘i can/i should figure out
how to help and solve these things’
to be my downfall.
i have to stop.
to run to prayer.
to refuse to lean on my own understanding
to run to the One Who Understands
and pour out my heart to him,
to take great comfort in the psalms
to rest in God’s ultimate care for
me and for this family.
fewer lists + worries,
more prayer + resting.
less ‘i can fix this‘
more ‘oh, God, please help us.’
‘savior of sinners,
have mercy on us.
we need you.’
[can you kindly add that to
your prayer list for us?]
here we go.
this picture has nothing to do
with our summer vacation.
a girl can dream.